Moira’s Cancer According To Seinfeld

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March 12, 2009: GEORGE: Hey, Jerry, remember Frogger? I used to be so into this game. Gettin’ that frog across the street was my entire life.

My sister Fifi says that going through cancer treatment successfully is like pressing the reset button on a video game. You get to start over. But since you’ve played the game at least once, things are much different on the next round—more knowledge of how to do it right.

I’m going into surgery today. Yesterday’s pre-op day at City of Hope was very busy. I met with Dr. Cameron, my surgeon, one last time and we went over the basics of tomorrow. My PET scan results were pretty good, she told me—if she doesn’t find any cancer in the sentinel node, I won’t have to do any more chemo. We talked about a bunch of other stuff for “the future” and it’s great to think that after this, the future can start right away, instead of delaying for yet more treatment.

Then I saw the NP who went over the details of my surgery and my stay. We also went over the aftercare instructions, although I will get those again before I’m discharged (good thing we did it beforehand—who knows what I’ll remember all medicated). Finally, I had a few labs done—blood, chest x-ray and EKG–so that they know where I’m at when I am under.

Even though I’m leaving for the hospital in less than an hour, I’m not really that nervous. I packed for overnight, I have some dodgy UK tabloids to read courtesy of Leighanne, and I just feel ready.

You know, all these women’s books say that breast cancer patients often have to mourn the lost of their breasts. I guess they are a big link to their femininity, since they do that whole child-rearing/feeding thing. I don’t know, I just don’t really feel that way. I just want them gone—inferior equipment that doesn’t belong on my body. As my friend Michelle says, thank them for their service and let them go. I’m just happy to be packed and ready for the next phase.

Time to hit reset.

 

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March 12, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | 1 Comment